Not Exactly Where I Thought I Would Be
Five years ago this week I walked through the doors of Cross Point Church not as a volunteer anymore, but a staff member. I remember that day so vividly. I remember driving the 30 minute commute from my home to the office thinking “Have I really done this?”, “Am I really walking away from the career I’ve passionately pursued since the age of 13 to work at a church?”, “God, is this really you?”
My mind was racing with questions and doubt, and yet there was a quiet calm underlying this decision. I couldn’t deny that God was doing something special at Cross Point. Five years ago with maybe 500 people in the seats in a dirty school cafeteria it wasn’t always apparently obvious that God had big things in store for this young church, but I can remember specifically the moment when I felt God telling me this was what I needed to do.
Fast forward five years and there are still days that I ask God similar questions to the ones I asked that morning of my commute… “God, really… is this really what you’ve called me to?”… sometimes that question is asked out of frustration and sometimes that question is asked out of awe and wonder.
In celebration of five years, I thought I would share five things I’ve learned so far…
1) It’s a 24/7 job. It’s a calling, a commitment and a sacrifice. I’m not suggesting you have to work unsustainable hours, but you can’t clock-in and clock-out. You have to embrace the responsibility.
2) Ministry leadership is not easier. In my case it’s been much more difficult than my corporate leadership experience.
3) I GET to do this. May I never forget the privilege it is to partner with God in the work of transforming lives.
4) Life-change never gets old. Seeing lives changed is all the fuel you need to make it through the dark days.
5) You can’t lose hope. You can’t lose sight of the vision. Create whatever marker you need to create to remember why you are in ministry and keep it prominently in front of you all the time.
What has ministry taught you?