More Reflections on Rest
We’re over half way through our trip. Just a couple of more days to take in the sights, sounds and scenery of Paris!
I told you (and myself) that I wanted this trip to be about rest.
Well, I’m not sure who I was kidding… probably not you.
This trip has been anything but restful! But while I’m not getting much rest, I am learning a lot about rest in the absence of it.
I’ve observed three different kinds of rest that I need:
Mentally this trip has been tough. From trying to converse in a different language, to navigating the metro transportation system, to staying alert to mind our safety, we’ve been on our toes.
Physically we have walked miles and miles of this city taking in every nook and cranny. Coupled with lots and lots of stairs at Notre-Dame and the Louvre… let’s just say our “dogs” are screaming. To add insult to injury, I can’t sleep. My body just won’t adjust to the time change.
And what I’m finding is that emotional tiredness is a bi-product of mental and physical exhaustion. When you’re just worn-out, your senses are hightened… just the mere mention of my husband makes me miss him and brings me to tears.
But before you either feel sorry for me or more likely get irritated that I’m complaining about a trip to Paris!!!… let me assure you I’m not complaining.
I’m learning that I live more exhausted than I think I do. Oftentimes I run on “empty” emotionally or mentally and I don’t heed the warning signs. Because this trip has been so physically exhausting there have been times when I have totally shut-down. My body just doesn’t want to go. There is no forcing it. I just have to chill out. Because physical exhaustion requires mental toughness to push through, if you are out of both, you’re done. But many days at home I physically can push myself through even if I’m emotionally or mentally tired. This is where the danger comes in. Physical toughness can cover a multitude of emotional and mental exhaustion issues.
If I’ve felt like God has shared anything with me this week, it’s that through my physically exhaustion he’s made me aware of the damage my tendency for emotional and mental exhaustion can have in my every day life.
My reflections on rest have not been what I thought they would be. I thought I would be sharing all these beautiful, glorious discoveries in getting true rest. That’s not the case. It’s been pretty much the opposite. But I’m grateful for the learning and still praying a little rest might be found in the next few days. 🙂
How about you? Are you mentally, physically or emotionally exhausted? How are you masking it? How are you pushing through it? How can you find rest this week?
What element of rest do you most consistently lack: mental, physical or emotional?