Out of Balance
“The scales of life seem so radically off balance and I don’t even understand where I should begin.”
I wrote that quote this summer after spending my first day in Honduras on a medical missions trip with Mission Lazarus, the ministry Cross Point supports in San Marcos.
I’ve been on a lot of mission trips in my life and each time I go I get overwhelmed by the disparity between my world and theirs. I often really don’t know where to begin. Every attempt seems so feeble in the grand scheme.
I waffle between the extreme emotions of an utter meltdown to calloused indifference.
Today I head back to Honduras for a week. We’ll be delivering Christmas gifts to many of the same children I first met this past July. I’ll reconnect with Emely who I met on that trip and absolutely fell in love with.
She stole my heart so much that I began sponsoring her meals and education each month. My gift from her will be seeing that beautiful smile in person once again.
Honestly I don’t know what I was thinking by booking a mission trip in December. It’s such a crazy month to be away. I second-guessed myself every day leading up to this trip. How could I add another thing to my already unbalanced world?
But really how could I not? To stay home, amidst the hustle and bustle – the parties… the shopping… the decorating… the baking – would actually feel more out of balance this year.
How do you balance the craziness of the Christmas season? What helps you have a balanced perspective amidst the madness? It may not be as extreme as leaving the country for five days, but be sure to pause and reflect to find some sacred moments. I hope to find some this week!