Anxious or Faithful
Contentment is my One Word pursuit this year.
And as I journey towards contentment I repeatedly have to face my anxious heart.
Typically anxiety accompanies the weight of responsibility I feel. And usually I’m feeling so responsible because I’ve begun to try to control it all instead of remembering it’s all God’s. It’s not mine. I’m just a steward.
What I’m really responsible for is to be faithful. I’m not responsible for the outcomes. I’m responsible for being faithful to my part.
I must repeatedly remind myself to live with open hands gently holding the things that God has given me to steward. Not giving into the urge to clutch them with a death grip and assume all control, nor to throw up my hands in exasperation or indifference. Open hands that are sensitive to be guided by God’s direction for my life.
Contentment is an unusual place where responsibility meets restfulness. Responsibility for our part, but resting in His.
May I not be anxious, just faithful.
When do you feel the most discontent? When do you feel the most content?
I can totally relate to this post. Like you, everytime I start feeling discontent, I realize that I’m trying to control outcomes. Outcomes that are not mine to control. –With that comes stress. Stress leads to discontentment. Trying to live with a grateful heart each days helps me find contentment. Being TRULY grateful for what I’ve been given each day, whether it’s what I have planned for myself or not, is when I’m most content.
Love this line: “Contentment is an unusual place where responsibility meets restfulness.” I am definitely most content in my marriage right now and the most discontent at my current job.